Yesterday
morning I was in a funk. Wallowing in apathy, as I am wont to do when
things aren't progressing on pace with the imaginary timeline in my
head. I was distressed that we hadn't heard news of YH's emigration
permit being approved yet--we had hotel and pet care reservations lined
up for mid-May and it looked like we would have to cancel them. The
darkest corner of my brain was convinced there was another unexpected
delay and we wouldn't be approved for months.
Adding to my despair: over the weekend our elderly tripod beagle developed sudden paralysis. He has since regained some use of his back right leg but his back left leg is useless. This is particularly challenging for him because he is missing his front left leg--so in essence he can only support himself with the legs on his right side. We've had to carry him up and down stairs and outside to relieve himself. He's not in pain, but the prospect of having to determine how this impacts his quality of life completely drained my emotional reserves and filled my stress cup to the brim.
I dragged myself through the morning preparations (packing lunches, putting socks on tired little feet,
filling dog bowls with organic kibble, loading the dishwasher). I
checked email 4000 times. I checked the facebookery 5000 times.
I decided to wash the windows.
Then
a friend and former student came over for a perfect diversion. My friend
is a finalist for a very prestigious fellowship and had an out-of-state
interview later in the week. She had a new suit that needed a blouse;
so I got to dress her up in my clothes, trying our best to transform her
into Hillary 2.0
We finished our sartorial labor
quickly and moved on to giggling over things on the internet (word to
the wise: never try to freak out a college student with creepy videos on
the interwebs; the college student will always one-up you).
And
in the midst of our giggling my phone rang. It was my program
specialist. I warned my friend I might cry and hastily grabbed the
receiver.
J*** said, "Hi Nora. I have good news for
you--YH's emigration permit is approved. You can expect your travel call
within 1-3 weeks."
And I died a thousand deaths from happiness.
And
then I spent the rest of the day in a fog. We went to our favorite
Korean restaurant for dinner, to celebrate, and my daughter asked many
insightful questions about what things will be different/same when we
travel. Questions about food and drink, about bookstores, about building
height, about public transportation--she's a traveler at heart, that
one.
My son matter of factly said "I'm pretty sure I'll be the one who
comforts YH when he's sad. Pretty sure he'll need me for that."
Final stretch. We're finally in the final stretch.
chills!!!
ReplyDeleteYes! You are finally in the home stretch, the last lap of the ultra marathon and there are lots of folks cheering you on! And hooray for your awesome son who is wise beyond his years :)
ReplyDeleteHow exciting! Congrats on the next step.
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